We have known each other for years. Two kids growing up and discovering who they really are. Supporting each other up in tough situations and laughing together during good times.
I love spending time with you. The way we joke and have meaningful conversations for hours at a time. We know each other so well.
That’s why I always thought we would end up together, but never got the courage to actually tell you that I like you as more than a friend. I used to think about you for hours before I can fall asleep. Just receiving a simple text from you made my whole day better. Then I met your girlfriend and everything changed.
We are currently living in different cities and you dated her for more than a year before introducing her to me and your other friends back home. Even though you talked a lot about her, I didn’t really know much about your relationship.
When I first saw you with her, one thing came into my mind: You look happy. Happier than I have ever seen you. You were both just sitting on a bench, cuddling and laughing about something, while waiting for the others. The way you behaved, showed that you really care about each other.
I was expecting to hate her. After all, she was the one holding you away from me. How can she be the one for you, when you and I were perfect for each other.
After talking with her for just five minutes, I knew that I was wrong about her and about the whole situation. She was kind and beautiful, had a great sense of humor, and a lot in common with you.
What surprised me was the way you both couldn’t keep your eyes off each other. How you caressed her and how you were goofing around together. You both looked like you were made for one another.
This day I thought that I would feel jealous and angry, but instead, I felt truly happy for you. You found your happiness and you deserve it. There were no jealousy and no bad feelings toward your relationship. And who knows what the future holds. I can see myself having a great friendship with her. We got along so good.
I would love to be looked at the way you look at her, to be caressed the same way, and to be truly loved. I know that I will find someone to love as much as she loves you. But this person will not be you, and I am glad things will be this way, because no matter how close we were, we never had that kind of passion and connection.
Now I finally feel free to find my true love. Don’t get me wrong, I still love you but just as a friend.
Sometimes waiting to reveal your feelings for someone can be a good thing.
This post was previously published on Medium.com.
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